I just wanted to give a little update as to why I’ve been so AWOL lately. Even though I’ve only been posting regularly on my blog for a little under a year, I already feel it’s kind of unlike me to just disappear like this without any explanation. This whole post feels a little weird and overly personal to share, but I do kind of feel better putting it out there.
Obviously, this last month has been a hard month for us all. All of our lives have been thrown completely upside down, and it’s definitely been a weird adjustment. When I think about what my life was like just six weeks ago, I never would have imagined where I would have ended up now. Not just in terms of Social Distancing and being laid off — which was already a brutal adjustment in itself. Unfortunately, on top of dealing with all of this, I’ve been going through a couple of personal losses in my life, and to be honest, I’m having a bit of a hard time coping with them.
My life has sort of felt like it’s been on hold since just about the time I’ve started this blog back in May — as I’ve briefly touched on before, a bit of an administrative error held me back from graduating last year, which I took really hard. I’ve really felt that I’ve been stuck in limbo ever since — while I’ve graduated from my sorority and moved off of UBC campus, I’ve still been in classes and had a hard time balancing my coursework with my rather hectic job.
However, I’ve finally got one of my two classes all finished up and I only have one final between me and finally finishing my degree. I’ve already put a crazy amount of effort in to my class and secured grades that just about guarantee me passing this class no matter what, but I really don’t want to make any errors at this point. I’ve come to far to let anything hold me back, really. With my final now exactly one week away, I want to make sure I really give it my all. Unfortunately, because of everything that’s happened over the last six weeks of my life (COVID-19 aside), I’ve been stressed about being behind in my studying. While I’ve worked hard enough at this class over this year that I technically don’t have to do well on this final at all to pass the class and finish my degree, I’ve just been feeling very worried and a little lost lately, and I’ve been trying to dedicate all my time to this final as I really just want to ensure nothing goes wrong.
I guess that’s kind of all there is to it. After this next week, I’m really looking forward to getting back into posting regularly and hopefully reintroducing some sort of normalcy into my life. I know things are never going to be exactly as they were for me at this point, but I really do miss sharing my thoughts with you all and having time to read all of your posts and hearing your stories. When I’m done with studying and my final, I’m going to have just about endless time to finally do everything I’ve been hoping to get done over this last year — not just creating new posts for you all every week, but being able to finish decorating my apartment, creating a more regular daily routine, making sure I have time to meal prep and work out every week and finally having time to reach out to friends it feels I haven’t had enough time to dedicate to over the last year.
I hope you’re all doing well, even with all the crazy stuff going on in the world. Make sure you’re taking care of yourselves! I’ve been missing having my little blogging community lately — you guys really have been so supportive of me over the last year and it means the world. I can’t wait to be able to be able to have the time to finally catch up with all of your posts and start sharing with you all again.
As a final note, I just wanted to thank everyone who’s shown me kindness this last month and a half — it’s been the most challenging time of my life but it’s taught me to never take anything for granted.
Stay safe out there, and love you all!